A New Me

In previous posts you may have noticed me ranting on not being able to get pregnant. Well, it still never happened. So for my 2011 New Years Resolution I decided I was going to make a change. And you know what? I made that change.

I decided to let go of the years of hurt, pain, and misery. I let go of so many things yet at the same time I grab on and held tight to love, happiness and hope. Hope that with change, I could be a better person. I could change the way I felt about me. And that's what I did. I changed me.

At 222 lbs. I was the heaviest I had ever been. It was difficult to look in the mirror and like what I saw staring back at me. On February 18th I took my first steps to change my mind about me. It's been a long road but as of today I have lost 55 lbs. and still counting. I went from a size 18-20 to a size 12 and I FEEL GREAT!!! My clothes fit and I get compliments from family and friends all the time. But best of all, my husband tells me how proud he is of me and my accomplishments. Just knowing he's proud of me keeps me going.  His support means everything to me.

So LOOK OUT WORLD... It's a new me! And I'm holding nothing back.

   

~Counting My Blessings~

Sometimes we get so wrapped up in our lives that we tend to overlook our blessings, no matter how small. It's important take a step back and reflect on all the positive things in life. So this Thanksgiving I'm counting my blessings and sharing them with you.

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My husband and I have been trying to start a family of our own for a few years now without any luck. Although it's emotionally draining I know that I am still blessed. I love my husband and I know he loves me just as much if not more. We have an unbreakable bond. So whether or not we have children, I know that my husband is and always will be MY family. I will always give thanks for this every day of my life.

At times I may complain and whine about my job but I know I am blessed to have it. There are so many people who aren't lucky enough to have a full time job with decent wages. This job helps provide for myself and my husband. So no matter now aggravated I get I know that I'm one of the lucky one's. I'm truly thankful for this.

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I am blessed to have wonderful family and friends that I can talk to and be myself around. Nothing beats quality time every now and again. It's makes me feel revived and connected. So my family and friends are truly a blessing.

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Ruby, my dog, has become more of a blessing to me than I would have ever thought possible. Every day she makes me laugh. She shows me 100% loyalty and when she looks at me, I see nothing but love. She's my little girl. I know God blessed me when He brought Ruby into my life.

Last but most certainly not least... My Father.

I've been through some rough times this year between surgery and my husband being out of state for three months (work related). My dad has been there every step of the way. He has cooked my meals, fixed household problems, fenced in my yard, took care of me and Ruby... The list goes on and on. No matter what, I know that if I were to call my dad he would be there without question. His love and loyalty to his children is unmatched and I love him so much for it. He would give his last dollar if he knew I needed it. God really broke the mold when he made my dad. I'm more then blessed that I have him as my father.

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I have so many more blessings in my life that I have not mentioned. But just because I have not shared them with you doesn't mean that they are any less important. It's your turn. Share with me your blessings. I'd love to hear them.

Random Tuesday Thoughts

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If you've read my previous posts then you should know how this works. Put your random thoughts in a blog post, click the above box and link up with the rest of the random thinkers. I look forward to reading your randomness.

A friend of mine just told me that she's pregnant. Although I am extremely happy for her I'm also mad at her. Does that make since? No? Let me give you the fast version. She's got a kid already and I've been trying to have a baby for years. I'm actually having my fourth round of in-vetro Wednesday. *crossing fingers* So although I'm ecstatic for her fortune, I'm sad because of my misfortune. I mean seriously, how bitter do I sound?

Two and a Half Men is crazy funny. The hubby and I are LOL.

How corny is it that I want to see Tangled? Cause I really, really, really do. I'm such a Disney dork.

 

I'm thinking about fostering a dog for the holidays. The problem... The last time I fostered a dog I wound up adopting her. I don't need another dog to take care of. 

Thanksgiving isn't here yet but I'm already over it and looking forward to Christmas. I just want to decorate. 

When did I become so old? Here lately the hubby has wanted to go out and I just want to sit at home. I know I'm being a downer but jeesh... I just don't want to go out all weekend long anymore. 

OK folks, that's enough randomness for now. My brain is fried from all the infertility pills I have to take.



Saturday 6

 

(Saturday 6 is hosted by the lovely Boobies & The Zombie Housewife.)

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Each week, you will answer six random questions and link up! This Saturday Six's theme is movies, so grab your popcorn and lets begin!

1. What's the last movie you watched in a movie theater?

2. Share some movies with us that are guaranteed to make you cry.
3. What's your personal favorite movie genre?
4. What's the last flick you watched?
5. Give us your top 5 favorite movies.
6. Now tell us some of your most hated...



~My Answers~

1. What's the last movie you watched in a movie theater?
A friend of mine (AllThingsVeronica) and I went to see The Last Exorcism. It was a complete waste of money. We both agreed it was one of the stupidest movies we have ever seen. When we should have been scared we were laughing. So were the other occupants in the theatre. I do not recommend it.

2. Share some movies with us that are guaranteed to make you cry.
I cry every time watching The Notebook, P.S. I Love You, and The Blind Side. Great movies!

3. What's your personal favorite movie genre?
I flippin love chic flicks but I also enjoy comedy. Horror used to be my fav but for some reason as I get older the less I want to watch it. Especially the classic horror movies.

4. What's the last flick you watched?
This past weekend I watched Robin Hood (with Russell Crowe) and Iron Man 2. They were both good movies.

5. Give us your top 5 favorite movies.
In no particular order: Pretty Woman, The Notebook, Dirty Dancing, Enough and P.S. I Love You. I told you I loved chic flicks.

6. Now tell us some of your most hated...

I hate movies like the last one I saw at the movie theatre which are fake paranormal movies. Some that fall into that category are Paranormal Activity (1 & 2), Blair Which Project, The Last Exorcism, etc.

Ok movie buffs it's your turn. Post your own blog and link up with us.

Fawk You Friday

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FAWK YOU dear husband of mine! I'm cooking your supper and cleaning house at the same time and you have the nerve to tell me to do the dishes while I'm at it. Dude?! Did you really just ask me to throw a punch to your ball-bag and drop you like it's hot? When I've worked all day, took the dog to the dog park, took you to the shop to check on your car, come home and cook you dinner and clean the house DO NOT tell me to do something else. Get your ass in the kitchen and do it yourself. Don't make me chop off that lovely winkie of yours and let the dog play with it, CAUSE I WILL! Your so not getting laid tonight buster.

FAWK YOU nosey neighbor! You're the nosiest person I know. I get it. But do you really find it necessary to let me know whenever my dog has an eye-booger that needs to be wiped? An eye-booger. Really?! IT'S JUST A FAWKING EYE-BOOGER!!! I don't need your random email, a knock on the door or a damned phone call. Geesh!

(A picture of my Ruby for your enjoyment.)

FAWK YOU insurance company! To make a long story short my husband and I have issues when it comes to having babies. Basically, it's just not happening. So we are seeking professional help and I'll be damned if my insurance threw up the bird and said a double "Fawk You" to me. They refuse to help pay for any of it. This Friday I'm having an HSG done and Wednesday & Thursday we are doing our 4th round of in-vetro. Do you know how much this costs? I could have feed a small third world country for all the money I'm blowing out of my ass. So again, FAWK YOU insurance company. You could at least throw a sister a bone. Damn.

FAWK YOU non-driving idiots! Stop signs and red lights are in place for a reason. Running them will cause you to crash into me. And if you crash into me I will jump out of my car and beat the fawk out of you. Don't try me!

FAWK YOU furlough day! Although I do quite enjoy being off work on a weekday (especially a Friday) I lose a days worth of pay and THAT SUCKS! I have bills bitches!

Last but definately not least...

FAWK YOU girly bits! I'm trying to have a baby here. The last thing I need is you fawking up on me and causing me issues. Get it together or get out.

That's all for this Friday folks. Have a fawking awesome weekend.

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Thank You

Thank You… It’s a word that expresses appreciation, kindness, and manners. It’s a word I seldom hear used now days.

I was taught to be grateful for what you have, value your belongings, and show appreciation to others. So I’ve always used the words Thank You. When someone opens a door for me, “Thank You” is my response. When someone hands me food through the drive thru window, “Thank You” with a smile is my reply. When my husband takes me out to dinner, “Thank You” is what I say to let him know that I hold value in his kindness.

What has happened to today’s people?

I see so many people who take and not give. Who walk around with sour faces and expects the world to cater to them. I see people who act like everything is owed to them and they don’t have to give anything back.

It's sad.

Sad because I feel like so many people have lost the ability to be kind to others. So the next time someone does something for you, say Thank You. No matter how small the act.

 

Wordless Wednesday

Halloween 2010

I know Halloween has passed but this pic of my nephew was too cute not to share. He's posing with a skeleton in my front yard.